The proof copies of “Bridge of Lies” have arrived. The books look, feel and smell totally wonderful. Much thanks to Anuk Naumann for the cover image and Peter Coleborn for the design of the cover and formatting of the book.
I should of course be ecstatic, but instead a grey inertia is threatening to creep over me. What I really want to do is to sit in bed and read. Or sit downstairs with a cup of tea and read. Or watch daytime TV, or catch up on all the programmes I haven’t had time to watch. Anything rather than get on with the marketing and promoting of my new book.
This strange version of stage fright is something that happens to me whenever a book is about to be published. It’s that moment before it goes out into the world when I am seized by the fear that no one will like it, let alone read, or buy it.
I don’t know if other writers suffer from this, but I’ve learned to live with it. I don’t give into the temptation to do nothing but break the marketing and promotion into small tasks and try not to fret when I don’t achieve as much as I think I should.
And to distract myself I bake. Not the usual things that I know I’m good at, but I try out new recipes, the most recent being cheese scones.
I love cheese scones. My friend Jan Edwards makes the most brilliant ones. Gluten free they are light and delicious with just the right amount of cheese to flavour but not overwhelm. She shared her recipe and I amended it by using regular plain flour instead of gluten free. I also put in less baking powder.
The results were not as good as hers. It’s obvious that I need to do more experimenting, so until I get it right, there will be no recipe. Everything I post on here has been tried and tested, some recipes over decades, so I know they are fool proof.
The cheese scones need work. Just like writing a book, or letting it go.
“Bridge of Lies” is out in May –by then my cheese scones might be light as clouds.